Alrighty, so here I am again, bringing more Depp goodness. Hope the last post was helpful, and informative. I still think I do this just for myself and my sanity, but that's ok. Gives me something to do. So, those of you who do read and enjoy, I've got another handful of goodies for you. So lets begin, shall we?

( Roll Camera... )

So, here we go. Johnny, as well all know, is indeed a rather handsome fella...no one can really deny that...but that "OMG *drool*" bit aside, he honestly is artwork worthy...what makes him pretty is his unique facial structure, his un-naturally dark eyes, high cheekbones, and permanent frown. He's intriguing to look at...to study. So of course, put that together with scary acting talent...talent that he did not seek out (he was going to be a musician), just naturally came, then you've got a pretty significant, special thing happening.

Ok, so this is going to kind of be a series of reviews...as stated, he's got a hell of a lot of material, and I can't just say a few words as you all know...so, I'll go over a handful, and update as I go. I had a good amount of his stuff, and then went and shopped around for what I did not have...so I still have some homework do to...and some to rewatch. I'm going to try to go in some kind of order from his earliest to his latest. So we'll start there.
 

Managed to pass my classes yet again *pats on back* Math and History are not easy things for me...so I was quite thrilled. I can now move onto official College Level Algebra...oh boy how I'm looking forward to THAT *bang* But it's a step. I only have a handful of classes left to take to get my Associates in Art...then hopefully I'm off to an actual university for film *crosses fingers*

And just in time for Christmas my brother goes on another suicide tear and ended up in the hospital for the first week of December. So there goes any happiness my parents might have had for their favorite time of year. Then of course as soon as he gets out he camps out here for the rest of the month. I hate him. Currently he is doing "well"...but I don't trust him or his medication for anything. I am just waiting on his next outburst. I am done hoping and praying...it doesn't work and it wears me out. So I'm done. I'm channeling all that angry energy in my music, movies and writing.

I did however say "fuck you" to that lovely situation and went to be with my sisters for the weekend after Christmas. So I enjoyed that. I hated that mom and dad could not be there, as did they, but damn...what are you going to do? They've chosen that his feelings are more important than their other 3 kids and grandchildren...so that's fine...I went and made a Christmas for myself and actually enjoyed it thank you very fucking much. Merry Xmas to you all.

So the New Year has come and gone already and tis time for school to start again soon...and I'm a bit mifted that I'm going to have to spend damn near $1,000 bucks this month for my tuition and bills. Sucks. I'll be unemployed after this moenth and that kind of money is hard to come by. I am however about to make some damn good money because it is Market time again at the World Trade Center of Dallas, where I work part time several times a year. Though currently full time...so I am very thankful to have the friends and connections I do there. I love that job.

Other than that same shit, nothing much is different...still quite miserable...though trying to do my best to not let it get the better of me...this is where that is allowed, so if you just snickered and rolled your eyes...lay off...I let it out here and try to put on a mask here in the real world. Unfortunately I don't think I do that good of a job. Finally, after completely giving up on ever having any kind of meaningful relationship with anyone...someone finally came a long and really showed me a good time for a few evenings. I had hopes that maybe I was getting better and it was not showing, and that I had finally made a connection. Until he stopped calling. So there go those hopes. Fuck it.

Alrighty, so as usual I have a few developments in my movie world. I have finaly come out from under the rock I have been living under and fallen in love with the greatness that was Paul Newman. I absolutely adore the films of his early years and their style. He was truly spectacular and a great lose in the world...he was a such a good person. So...to all of you staring at these words funny...go find "The Long Hot Summer", "Cool Hand Luke", "Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid" and "The Towering Inferno" and figure it out for yourself. And those are just to get you started in some different directions.

And it's almost time for my shows to start again. Lost and Big Love are about to get going again and I am fooking floored! So excited. And yesterday I had the pleasure of getting to see Transiberian Orchestra live and all I can say is WOW! You MUST see them in concert to complete your music life. MUST. They are BRILLIANT! Pyro, lights show...electric violins...rockin hot guitarist...pianos...voices...hair *dies* So much talent.

Ok, so that's been me since last time. Cheers to you all that read. And I shall leave you with one more of my favorites that's about to start again. Blue October have been a huge part of my life for some years now...I've gotten to know them and I connect deeply with Justin's lyrics. They are just about through with their latest album "Approaching Normal" and some of my long time favorite songs made it onto this current album. I am so ready to see them all as a group again. It has been awhile...and seeing one or two here and there every now and then inbetween tours is not enough. So their new single is out...and it has absolutely hit me in the face. Justin always has a way of putting out a song that is my life to every word exactly when I need it. I needed this one so badly. And it scares me how accurate it is to me. This song tells exactly how I've felt, feel, thought of and imagined with this whole fucking situation with my brother. And Justin has once again, reached into my soul, and pulled it all out into a beautiful piece of work. I love him. So...I leave you with the lyrics to the song, and a link to listen.  Deuces.

Dirt Room

Then take a picture for the cover of our album!

www.youtube.com/watch

MUSIC: *see above*
MOOD:
                      Lonely
 

So college is ok and slightly annoying as always. I'm absolutely rubbish at math and my professor is a fluddyduddy who stands right in front of the damn board, so you cannot see anything he's writing...and he does not know how to explain all of his steps. So people like me are lost. I'm really trying to just pass the tests and squeek by at this point. History on the other hand is not as much of a headache for me this year, thank god. My prof is really great. She's enthusiastic and does not like the fact that we even have to have tests. So she really tells us what we need to know and tests us over it. Ethics can be interesting and quite boring, depending on the subject matter and how hard it is to understand my lil papa Pete professor from Maine.

Ah! AND...I FINALLY got to my Hanson concert! Good lord I've not seen them since '05...so it was GREAT to see them again. It was like going back to roots. They are such an important part of my music life. Without them, I would not have experienced music the way I have nor had the love and adoration for it. I owe a lot of my happiness to them in what they offered me. So they were great! Really great...they are one of the best bands live. They and Blue October give a hell of a show. So try to catch them while they are touring...it would be a really nice evening out.

Ah and new car *squee* I got an '09 black Nissan Altima Coupe...and it's my baby! It's like my Christine...minus the haunted killing thing lol Though you never know...my brother might have his fate with him *ponders that possibilitiy* I've not named him yet...though believe me I'm thinking. So here he is:

And as for the work thing...fuck that shit. As some know, I worked at a sign company for a year and a half. Was doing ok...started to get a bit jadded with it, but put up with all of my co workers mood swings and tried to not make waves. Well...lets just say that we hit a boiling point and I was not about to take the blame...so I told my "boss" that she had things she needed to work on as well as I if we were gonna make it work. Well that royally pissed her little queen ass off...so we hit a point that we could not come back from. So fuck 'em. Good luck finding anyone else to work for that madness. So currently I am working off and on at the World Trade Center (not market...that isn't until January then again in June) then for a friend of ours that I've known since I was about 9...she runs a thing called "Holiday Season" and she decorates christmas trees, wreaths and everything involved...then installs it all in business buildings for chirstmas. So I'm getting paid more for less hours than I was at the sign place. Thank you *bows*

Annnnd...yup...I'm 21 now *celebrates* Woo! Honestly, nothing different other than ya know...drinks. My two best friends took me out the other night to celebrate with ear peircings, food, drinks and clubs hahah I love them so much. They take me out of my life and let me live with them for a night here and there...and for that I am eternally grateful lol But honestly...I started to feel a bit panicked last week. I mean...I guess you are officially an adult at that age...to everyone that does not know your personal situations that may have aged you to adulthood way before that number...And I've felt  "grown" for some time now...but now it's like the age matches the feeling...you know? Ah, sorry if that makes no sense. But yeah...so we FINALLY got to have a bit of a family vacation. Mom, dad and I went a Friday-Monday roadtrip that involved a stop at Sea World! Oh yes...I was fucking thrilled! So I have some pictures for those interested: good-times.webshots.com/album/567910340HMhpqA

Jason and Ky

Ky bellyflop

Tuar ball jump

Trainer and Unna

( Brother rant...you've been warned... )

Whew, so yeah...sorry I always have to bring my post down with "my brother" shit...but it's something that I live with everyday, so my mind cannot get away from it...and I need a way to get it out. So, on to other things...My lovely friend Parselmouthmama and I have become hopelessly addicted to the new full of awesome vampire show, True Blood. This show kicks so much ass...apparently it's cheesey to a lot of people...which we don't get...we think it's pretty damn clever, funny as hell,  and has everything we love in our movies in it. Sex, drugs, and a hell of a lot of cussing lol Wow, does that knock down our standards for entertainment or what? lol It's been a real enjoyable show for us. We missed having a day of the week that was "ours" when we could make it work. So it's nice to be able to look forward to it every week. So those of you not watching...shame on you...go find it and watch the hell out of it...NOW.

So I guess that's the end of my ramblings. Good to get caught up just a bit. Movies are still amazing...but right now I'm looking forward to more that have not opend yet than ones that are out. So come November...I'll have a lot to talk about.  So go on, live your lives...enjoy the people around you and count your blessings. Tell those who matter to you how much so...Happy Halloween to you all...

~KK~

Mood: Cranky

Music: mOBSCENE ~ Marylin Manson

Like anything good can ever happen anymore. As most who read my journal know...I am whale crazy. I LOVE orca whales (Shamu) and have since I was very young. I am just so very facinated by them and adore everything about them. Their grace, beauty, and strong family ties. For the past several years I have made it a hobby to study all the captive orcas in the Sea World parks in the USA and have really gotten to "know" the animals through all of my research. 

Here in Texas, we have one of the SW parks. When my favorite orca, Taku, was moved from the Flordia park to here November 2007 I was thrilled! I never though I'd get to see him, so for him to have been moved here was just so very exciting. He was a huge mature bull, who could do waterwork ( trainers in the water with the animals) with his trainers. He was very gentle, mellow and loved calves. He was a big softy. Unfortunately when we headed to the park a rain storm like you would not believe hit, and we were unable to make it to the park. I was quite disappointed, but knew we'd try again later. Unfortunately I didn't get to make it to the park before Taku died of pneumonia that October, the day my beautiful niece Riley Hart was born. 

Taku



I was so very crushed. I had wanted to see him so badly. After he died I didn't really have much of a desire to go any longer. It took a long while for me to look forward to going again. There are other orcas there of course, but you know when you have a favorite, no matter what it is, you look forward to seeing it in some form or fashion. After his death I busied myself with keeping up with the other orcas at the Texas park, Ky, Keet, Tuar, Unna and the little baby angel Halyn.

Keet and Halyn
Father and Daughter



Little Halyn was a miracle in a package. She was born in October, 2005, to her mother Kayla, and father Keet. But Kayla, having not been taught the ways of being a mother, rejected Halyn at birth and it was up to her trainers to step in and try to save the baby. They were successful. For months, the trainers took shifts with Halyn bottle feeding her, monitoring her, making sure she was going to make it. She quickly became a treasure to everyone around her. Just a little bundle of joy. She was very special. Trainers started her husbandry and show training, which she proved to  pick up on quickly. She was slowly being introduced to the other members of the pod, mainly her father Keet. The two seemed to enjoy their time together and she even started to do show with him. Two years later, here in 2008, trainers began noticing Halyn acting strangely. They ran some tests and were waiting for the results when this precious little girl died June 15.

Halyn



I am just so very sad about this. I cannot imagine the sadness that her trainers are feeling. They worked so hard to keep that little girl alive and she was such a cutie...huge personality, beautiful little thing. She was so very special and loved. I just cannot believe that she has died. First Taku now Halyn. I really wish I had to words to describe my feelings about his...but I am in such shock that I cannot think of anything that would make sense to anyone in words. I'm really bummed that everything just seems to keep getting worse. Things here at home are still not good, if you gather reading my previous entry, and to hear that one of my loves has died is just almost too much. I've been working non stop this month, friends are away and busy. My girlie friend has a very full plate and has not had anytime to breathe for herself, must less anytime to spare for us to have time together. Then my other friend told me last night that she is pregnant and that she and her boyfriend are getting married in two weeks. So I've been a bit lonely. But I did get a new kitten who has made me laugh and smile every day, and I love him to death for it. He's a cute little black cat, longish hair and green eyes. He's such a mess I love him to death. He is Jack, my little Lost boy...(yes, THAT Jack...I'm sad...I know...)

Jack



I just felt the need to "voice" my pent up feelings. No one really understands my love for my orcas, so I don't really get to tell them much without them thinking I'm dumb...so I type it here. Anyway, fingers crossed things get better...few prayers wouldn't hurt either...

~KK~

***Orca pictures belong to Jenna aka: ilovetekoa***

Mood: Sad   Lonely
Music: Perfekte Welle